I can't sleep. So, I'm writing you.
I lie here in bed, a bit restless, though my heart is warm knowing we get this time together.
Every Thursday has become a bit of a routine, making sure I always have a little email morsel for you to enjoy when you start your day on Friday. It brings me great joy, so thank you for that.
I've been anxiously counting down the days until tour. It's exhilarating, really.
One part of me is excited and ready to go out, the other is holding the invisible siderail holding on for dear life when the hot balloon is ready to lift.
Preparing for this tour has been a bit more stressful than any of the previous ones. All sorts of insecurities have been popping up. Strangely predicting, at times, my own demise, until I remember what I believe. We create our own reality with our energy. Maybe I care too much.
At the end of the day, it seems, it's not one of those life or death scenarios. It's not one where it's saving all sorts of lives in emergency surgery.
Or perhaps, is it?
It's hard to know the effect of what we do. The importance. The only solution to this I have found is to be in the moment, and do the best, and when I'm not, move onto something else. To not take myself too seriously. It is MUSIC after all. It is LIFE, after all. Ever fleeting, and infinitely unique to the core.
I try to find the healthy balance to find what the important things are.
You matter to me.
and I trust that for whatever reason, I have been summoned to show up, and reveal more of me than I ever have before, spiritually, mentally and emotionally. That you have been summoned here for this simple moment to share in lifes subtleties. That whatever you are going through, or living in is exactly what is meant to be to have you grow into the next level of you.
A greater day, for all of us.
And I just thank you for sharing you with me.
You'll hear from me again before I leave to fill you in, but again.
I just want to say thank you. You're special, and I hope you have a beautiful day.
Enjoy your Friday, and your weekend.
Sending so much love,